Notes From The Underground 2001

   

Anguish

Lost among the others, nothing matters now
It seems the sky will find me, it’s coming right down
Soon it will cover me in whole and surely it will enfold
My anguish deep inside

No one gives me hope I am empty handed
I am bruised to the bone, my spirit is broken
I don’t want to bleed a little harder
I curse the blackened sun, my heart is sinking
My heart is sinking

A change of heart, a change of scene
Break the hold and move unseen
I reached the point, I shut my eyes
My soul’s retreat from things too sweet

Sealed under covers I feel so much hate
Time blows trough these fissures, keep it all away
Pound my head against the wall, so frequently indoors
So secretly I hide

Nothing I see and feel stops the heartache
And nothing I receive fills the hole in
The freedom that I’ve won is dragging me down and
Only the blind will see me now
Will see me now

And I fall in a single bed therefore it makes me sad
And the thought of missing her
For a reason

And I fall in a single bed therefore it makes me sad
And the thought of missing her
For a reason

A change of heart, a change of scene
Break the hold and move unseen
I reached the point, I shut my eyes
My soul’s retreat from things too sweet

I Want You Now

Sometimes I find in dreams a whole new religion
Your body looks like Heaven
I must be in number seven
For an obvious reason I am deep in your debt
For an apparent reason I stay in bed

I want you now, I want you now!

My body floats in Heaven
In the palm of your hand
My body floats like Heaven

A flaming warmth in my headIf the world and love were young and truth on every tongue
The harshest pill to swallow
Is the hole in your soul
Someone somewhere is crying
You surely have a point
I’ve got no reason for lying
I reach the boiling point

I want you now, I want you now!

Love me, love me not
We stay up late and time has stopped
I meet your eyes
Starry skies
Feed my dream, feed my dream
I want it now!

My body floats in Heaven
In the palm of your hand
My body floats like Heaven
A flaming warmth in my head
All the walls tumble down
Fall in pieces around us now
All the walls tumble down
Fall in pieces around us now
Someone, somewhere wants you now

I want you now

Innocent

And it’s cold in here when you’re all in tears
Your vision is in black and white, you feel so afraid
You fail to show your better half, it’s such a shame
Tomorrow’s dream never comes, it remains in shades
Remains in shades

Sticks and stones break my bones and it hurts too much
Easy come and easy go, in love and war all seems fair
But’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all
Now I am holding ground
Now I am safe and sound

But it’s the last straw that breaks my back and life’s too short
Handsome is as handsome does and there’s so much more
A change is good as rest they say and all that glitters is not gold
Now I am holding ground
Now I am safe and sound

No way I found love sane and sound
And it’s cold in here when you’re all in tears
Those endless nights of intrigues make it all too clear
In this dark world and wide I am innocent
I am innocent

Internal Darkness

Sunshine, I wait for dawns recurrent light
I ponder in my narrow house and warm myself
Moonlight, calmly shines through the night
I stare at these old photographs, my heart beats fast

I find no peace to read or write
My soul is lost, my spirit’s down
There’s no one in the dark
My little world has lost it’s light

The dim serene, I can’t escape at all and my thoughts reveal
I can’t forget the better days behind closed doors
I’m still confused and longing for

Behind these lowered window blinds
I’m holding back the tears and find
I think I shall never know
Why I’m like this and you are so

We all grow, what happened through the years where dreams lie still
I tried to change it all and found dreams lie dead
I can’t redo it all again

Liberty

I am standing on hallow ground
But I won’t stay, maybe
I’m leaving tonight
And I’m giving some warming to
To the thought of being through
But still I feel
This storm inside

On the brink of the night and morning
I go out not to think but to walk into the depths of dawn
And I hear the sounds from all the way down
Ringing through my mind round and round
And all it feel is this yearning inside

I guess it’s gonna be, a question of my sanity
I guess it’s gonna be, against the heart of liberty

And again the thought is pleasing
To hang out in a city lounge
And walk in brilliant weather
But still it won’t calm me down
Since I hear
This voice inside

I want you, need you, all the time
I want you, need you, all the time

I guess it’s gonna be, a question of my sanity
I guess it’s gonna be, against the heart of liberty
I guess it’s gonna be, a question of my liberty
I guess it’s gonna be, against the choice of gravity

Something'S Wrong

Do you know me now?
When I let you fall
Do you know yourself?
When you’re going down
Do you know enough?
When you hit the ground
Do you feel the pain?
When you’re coming round

So what if you can’t stand it and you’re left in the dark
I simply don’t see you
Like you don’t exist at all
'cause, there's something wrong with you
There's something wrong with you
There's something wrong with you
There's something wrong with you

In this desolation
One day you will see
The still blue waters
So let it be
Intrigue and treason
Treachery and hate
Confusion blossoms
In the darkest place

How obvious are your motives
How simple are your thrives
All these fears and emotions
Lie hollow in your lies
Do you know me now?
When I let you fall
Do you feel the pain?
When you hit the ground

So what if you can’t stand it and you’re left out in the cold
All ties are broken
So I simply don’t care at all
'cause, there's something wrong with you
There's something wrong with you
There's something wrong with you
There's something wrong with you
There's something wrong with you

The Bitter Sweet

I am not a saviour, I am not a saint
I am not an angel who’s coming in
I don’t believe in anything pure like you do

So many times before, so many times and more
I taste the bitter sweet
So every now and then you hear my cursing tongue
Sometimes you go along

So now live on hope and fear no more
I am not a monk, I am not a silly dope
I want to bring it home, I want to make it clear
I want to tell you dear, all ends here
So now live on hope and fear no more
I am not a monk, I am not a silly dope
I want to bring it home, I want to make it clear

I drift on water, you walk on land
You’re not a martyr, please understand
I don’t believe in anything true like you do