The Burning Circle and Then Dust 1995

A PRESENCE IN THE WOODS

I stare out towards the woods and I pray that you're there
hopelessly stare at the sky as I breathe in this air
everything fades for awhile and I feel your sweet breath
a few precious moments of this, I adore, and I feel you
and I can feel you
and I can feel your everything
your everything...
I am so happy you're here, at long last peace is found
I will never again drift so low, be so down
and just maybe someday I will feel your caress
but for now I stand here in the woods, and I feel you

WANDERING SOUL

then every single thing fades
and I think about the day, that we...
might finally be together
oh, I need to know, yes, I need to know
hope sinks low on this lonely day
I wander around and get in my car and drive
worked so hard, worked for everything
but now I'm alone, so I'll just drive and drive
I'll just drift from here to there
just trying to forget...this all
and...all these things I only dream of
and...all the things I'll never have...never

SLEEPLESS

I can't think, think about anything
I can't think of anything at all
my thoughts drift but keep coming back to you
face to the ground, eyes closed hard
I still care
I can't sleep, I just lay here awake
sleep comes but quickly fades away
I'll just lay here and wait for the morning sun
sleepless again, eyes closed hard
I still care, I care, I care...

THE RETURN OF NOTHING

has your love passed away?
and do you think of me at night in stormy weather?
and when the clouds burn away...
and the sun beats so deeper and brighter?
does your memory fade...
when you think about all the things that we dreamed of?
does your heart drift away in the morning time...
as frustration prevails, prevails?
...for awhile?
is everything all right?
why have you run from me?
why have you left me forever?
did I scare you away?
or is this something that I only dreamed of?
so is this your good-bye?
cloaked in silence...have you left me forever?
you seem so far away
and I can't help but think how frustration prevails
prevails...for awhile

PRAY

everyday I pray for you
everyday I pray
every night I think about...
everyday I pray
I pray...
for better things to come

life is so bare, life is so, so bare
I don't think that I can take this again
everything is cold, everything is cold
I am such a liar, just let me throw this away...again

THE BETTER THINGS TO COME

I'll wait each and everyday
I'll wait for better things to come
everything will go my way
if I just wait patiently
all this sadness fades away
with better things to come
the better things to come

WHERE HAS ALL THE TIME GONE?

mother, mother, mother
where has all the time gone?

ANYWHERE BUT HOME

I remember things, things from long ago
days that were so bare, times that seemed so low
I don't think that we can ever be together
anywhere but home
take me in your arms, smile for me again
please don't ever leave, this must never end
I am so alive, why must this now end?
I will never be quite the same again

SLIP AWAY

I crawl out in the morning time and I am fine
and then I breathe in this air and I slide
why does it always end up like this?
and what is the meaning of my decline?
I drift out and I drift out far, and I surmise...
that just everything that I've felt has declined
why did you leave me adrift like this?
and what is the meaning of our decline?
I could have had it all
but I let it slip away

THE LAST DAY

it's the last day and I'm better
I'm better
no more waiting like this
it's over
today's the last day
now I'm better
I'm better
and I can now see it all
and I can now see just everything
everything

NINE HOURS LATER

I climb to the mountain, to the top of the mountain
and nine hours later I stop in despair
I try to envision the face of the girl
but she's so far away from the top of the world
she's the girl I love
this dark and cold of winter makes me so lonely
so sad and lonely in this dark room
and then for one moment, a deep and warm embrace
and nine hours later, she waits for me
she's the girl I love
at least for awhile, this all fades away
this all fades away　

NIMBLE

you are my skin stretched soft
cover my bones
like grass on an ancient grave
moss on a forgotten stone
nimble fingers feel you feel me
eyes pushed wide open to heaven
tears from Christ fall down cover me
"the gentle salt of pious tears"
slides down my cheeks
"across my open lips tastes tongue gently"
fantastic this love
"in heaven love... angel's wings beat"
like sand beneath the sea
"muffled...flowing"
and the tiny star blinks and I missed it
"the past was stolen"
stare into vast grey skies
"pinlights dance in cold grey eyes"
the faeries playing firefly
"and you beneath me...wet grass shimmering"
fly with me forever　

THE FACADE FADES

everything fades
as I decline
this facade burns away
and behind it all...
...lies nothing but emptiness and pain

RESIGNED

then she and I
drove out to the country
and I felt fine
but she seemed lonely
and so resigned
it seeped deep into me
and then she cried
and pulled away from me

SURRENDER

you with me in heaven
floating like ribbon in the sea of tranquility
the perfume of your soul intoxicating
water in cascades
surrender
fall with me into the arms of angels
the feather touch of kisses
into the light forever
tongues twist in time to oblivion
water rising higher
and we sink into the sea
lungs filled...smiles explode
and home again
(time stands frozen forever)
and in my arms you stay
(like a baby to my breast you stay)
the stars fall to earth and we catch them
the sugar of your kiss reflects them
eyes wide like oceans vast
inside with me chosen at last
"time in the presence of the garden never-ending
rib fit firmly back in place
the circle complete as the skies explode
the blessing of angels cry down on us
like diamond chips our flesh glistens
wet and soft with the tears of the cherubim"　

THESE MEMORIES PASS

and then I prevail again, again
as all these memories pass again
I look ahead to the new day again
please no more dark days, dark days, again, again
and from the top of the mountain
I stare down on new flowers
and go straight into a new day
and I see the new flowers
and I drift down towards a new day
and I feel like new flowers
now I'm on the steps of a new day
and new flowers, and new flowers　

THE BURNING CIRCLE

and in a flash it lingers...in the fire, in the pain
the burning spiral burns again
for the last time, and then it fades
the dust it settles all around
and through the fire comes better days
and all these memories burn away...and the circle fades
and all of this I leave behind
and I watch it fade
and all of this I leave behind
and I welcome better days
and in the light it flickers...the new fire, the new day
the night sky beats down hard again
with just a smile and no pain
the dust it settles all around
and through the fire comes better days
and all these memories burn away
and the circle fades...

STHE NEW DAY

the haze fades, she speaks in tongues of brighter days
I sink back, I'm so afraid in every way
the past fades, she sings the song of brighter days
I reach out, she takes me into brighter days
and I can feel again, no for the first time
our souls embrace, my heart beats for the first time
grey days are gone, my heart sings for the first time
the sun beats down on me, no for the first time
the brand new day is here, I will never leave you
the brand new day is here, I will always love you
the brand new day is here, I will never leave you
just take my hand and stay with me forever